Working Late

Here I am in the office, studying a speech by a Fed official, waiting to do a special edition of TK's show. We are the "show of record" on the economy and so therefore we go on with a completely different show from the one that aired earlier today. Oy. One of the not-so-great things about my new gig. However, I still like it. It's interesting and TK and I get along swimmingly. He still tends to text me with incomprehensible gibberish after a few martinis (or any time actually...the man cannot type to save his life!). Today we were talking about where to go for martinis and I mentioned the place where CC and I enjoyed key lime versions. YUMMY. TK said their martinis are too big. My reply, via office email: "No drink is too big." He wrote back: "Trouble, that's what you are." Love TK! Today he re-introduced me to the BIG BOSS, whose desk is right next to him. He said to me, have you met MW? I said yeah. Then I added, well but I am sure he doesn't remember. So TK made a big show of taking me over. We shook hands. MW said I was doing a great job and thanked me. Er. Ok. Am so far thoroughly enjoying being TK's minion. And last week with Magoo was funny. He did a data check and said we were "oh so close" to a record. My manager quickly buzzed me in the control room and said "we don't say oh-so-close, please tell Magoo." So during a commercial I told Magoo we don't allow any personality on this show and to cut that out. He looked at me in surprise. So I had to explain that "oh-so-close" is a sign of personality and to please cut that out. CC said later, you didn't actually correct Magoo? And I said of course, it's my job to do that. Ha.I think CC wants Magoo. She sent me a note that said "I love M--" the first time he hosted. Go to it. Have at him, CC. I am sort of avoiding telling you all that Paul and I are having a difficult week. Last night we spent time arguing, then talking, then arguing...then talking. This thing with his ex hasn't helped (although she's still done nothing)...I dunno. I don't really want to blog the details but I THINK we're okay. I asked him if we could go and see a couples therapist and he's agreeable. I just think we fight about alot of the same stuff...and sometimes no matter how hard I try to Lois the situation, we repeat the same patterns. I am seriously considering giving up drinking...I don't know that it really would stop us from arguing but uh...it would probably be good anyhow...but then of course Paul won't and he says he's comfortable with who he is drinking. I told him that wasn't constructive. Also told him I'm tired of him sneering at my smoking. He says he only does it because he loves me. And I told him, well what if I sneered at your smoking? and he said, you do. Oh yeah, true. See what I mean. Sometimes I think Paul is the most perfect man for me and then sometimes, when we go back and forth arguing over stupid stuff, I think...WHY do I want to be in a relationship? He is wondering the same thing, sometimes. He told me that last night. I think we're both just cranky. I know he's worried about money and his ex and he wants us to buy a place and I'm talking about having a baby and all that stuff. On my end, I don't like being in the middle of this thing with his ex and I feel like she takes advantage of him and he says he handles her the way he wants to and I should butt out and he's probably right but it is very difficult to stand on the sidelines. I kind of hope we do go see someone because if nothing else, it would be fabulous blog material: "Paul, how do you feel when Patty screams at you?" "I feel bad and I retreat into a shell. That's how I handle things." "Patty, how do you feel when Paul sulks?" "Like I want to punch him in the face." "Er, Patty, that doesn't seem like a good solution."